In the silence of my workouts, I think a lot. I think a lot about my past, my present situation, and the future. Today - I dealt more heavily on my past. Many times you can't help but think, did I do something in my past to deserve the present? Did I make a mistake in how I treated someone? Did I make a wrong turn somewhere? Did I make a horrible decision somewhere? The answer to those questions are of course....we ALL DO. We are all human and we don't always make the best decisions for ourselves no matter how hard we try to. I know I blew up some bridges in my past, and even though there were points where I tried to make amends for those, some people never fully or NEVER forgave me for those mistakes. I can't change those individuals and how they feel. I am sure many of them believe I deserve my fate - but this post isn't really for them. It is for those of you that are still part of my life, and there is an important lesson here I want you to take away.
Life is short and never guaranteed to us. If we think about the span of life - and how long it took natural selection and evolution to get us to this point in human history, we really are just a blip on the radar. How are you spending that small time you have? We are not immortal - all humans eventually kick the bucket, but the question remains, what did you with your life and how did you treat others? If there is one thing I want you to read it is THIS: Forgive. Life is way too short to live hating someone and holding a grudge against them forever. Some people live this way constantly, and I have no idea how you can survive living life in that fashion. To some people, that one mistake, even if the person tries their hardest to make amends with you, is a death sentence in their own eyes. Don't let your last conversation with someone be a blow out where you eventually hang up on them. Don't distance yourself from someone because "I don't want that drama in my life." Life is dramatic - things happen that we can't possibly control and all you can do is go with it. You can't predict what will happen to that individual. Don't be mad at someone who has no idea and never tell them what they did. I am not saying don't have emotions. We all fight and disagree, but even through all of that - forgive them - forgive each other. I promise you, if you live with hate in your heart against someone and they pass, you will live with that regret forever. If you don't - I honestly believe you have one hard and cold heart.
I have lived with people that I cared deeply for passing away before their time. There is one regret I live with. A friend of my died and the last time I spoke to him I was insanely upset with him. To this day I wish I had said I'm sorry and that he was a true friend to me. I will never get that opportunity. I am so sorry I was so upset with you Sean, I know you were grieving, and before I knew it, you died. He was my friend, and I tried to be there for him when his brother passed away (who I was also friends with and I myself was grieving), but at the time, things were such a mess, that I didn't exactly have the patience to deal with much more. All I can tell all of you is don't live with this sort of regret in your heart. I miss many people every day, but in most cases I was fortunate enough to have a good memory of them before their passing - and I am forever grateful for that.
Live your life with no regrets. Love each other instead of hating each other. Forgive one another instead of holding a grudge forever. Listen and communicate instead of hanging up because you are too afraid of confrontation. In essence, be a decent human being. Remember that love, anger, sadness, regret - these are all a part of life. Those who are smart learn from these events that shape who we are as individuals.
I love you - I forgive - I'm sorry. Don't let those three phrases be axed out of your vocabulary.
"let the waters of your life be smooth and constant"